The truth is, I’ve been keeping this a secret from you. In fact, I’ve had a blog page for almost a year and haven’t sent the link to anyone because…well… I am afraid to blog.
Writing tends to be an outlet for me in which I make myself pretty exposed and vulnerable. Inviting people into my life this up close produces some fear in me. The fear is that if people know the real me, the real and raw thoughts, they could all gather around in a large circle and mock me. The fear goes deeper. The fear of not being approved of. The fear of losing human affirmation. The fear of wanting so badly to be liked but realizing that some people may not always like what I think or say. So I am taking on a great challenge by blogging! Exposing some pretty personal struggles and experiences- and now I will be held accountable for it!
I want to be transparent, sort of like a window. If people know the real me, they can help me learn to live. Hopefully these experiences will help others to learn to live too. At very least, may it be a form of multimedia entertainment.
Thanks for visiting!
Love,
Katie
Thank you, Katie, for sharing your difficulties in blogging. I have a blog, but haven’t written a word yet. Why not? Fear of someone knowing me a little bit more, perhaps. At any rate, I am inspired by you and am starting my blog today. You are a brave and courageous young woman.
Peace and joy to you.
Ciaran
Hi Katie,
You’re so not alone in this fear! I under took the terribly scary journey of vlogging even! I used it as a committment tool, and just stood up there “naked” so to speak and said this how it is for me (just fill this in a bit-I am on a raw food eating lifestyle as I was terribly sad and obese)but I did get up and vlog and was even asked to guest vlog now which I do each week with 500-1000 viewers ahhkkk!
The thought still scares me. I am so inspired by your honesty in your writing and frankly sorry to tell you that your beautiful spirit shines through into the flow of your writing. but we ain’t without the thorns in life, I had this troll who was really mean, but came to the realisation that it wasn’t me, it was his sad life he was taking about! You are beautiful in your truth and you will so be honored in taking the courage to just be yourself. Power to you girl! oh and if your interested in seeing me(one more wont matter much LOL)this is not the rawfu site just mine own one. http://www.youtube.com/user/Tynx you can just me being me on my journey! Love to you posting your truth! I see you have written more since, which wil be great to go and read now, I adore your writing!
Blessings xxx Lou